I Wonder…
I wonder if there will ever be a day that I see your picture and don’t start crying.
I wonder if you miss me,
if you are alone are you cold do you hurt anymore.
I wonder how long I will be upset with you for leaving me.
I wonder about all the things I didn’t do right as your mom.
I wonder how many more days, months, years before I see you if ever?
I wonder how I’m suppose to be here for the other kids when I miss you so much and feel like I failed you.
Jon this is so awful. I don’t know how to do this. I feel like I can’t breathe.
I wonder if when you decided it was time to go were you mad, sad or glad when you left?
I wonder if you hated me?
I miss you so much your story wasn’t over. It’s not suppose to be this way.
Your sister turned 21 the other day and you missed it. She got a new car that you aren’t taking a ride in.
Joey got a job you two should be working together.
Zack has his license and car on this road this week you should be tormenting him.
Dads helping with football you should be videoing the games and razzing the players.
I miss you. I miss you. I love you.
I Heard Your Laugh
I turned around and just emptiness. Just loneliness. You weren’t here. Your never going to be here again.
Your Table
I wonder if there will ever be a day that I don’t break down just thinking about you and looking at your pictures.
Went to visit you
I Went to Visit You Today...Went to visit you today. To wish you a Merry Christmas. Sounds weird as nothing merry about you not being here. However...