I Hear It Will Get Easier

I Hear It Will Get Easier…

I hear a lot it will get easier. It will turn into a different kind of pain. You just learn to live differently.

When? When does that happen? When does it not feel like it’s still the day it happened?

Almost all of your smell is out of your clothes now. It’s hard to smell you anymore. Your sweatshirt has been soaked with a billion tears. This is so hard buddy. I know they are just things and it’s the memories that are important but I just miss you so much. Why are you not in this damn sweatshirt? Why did you leave me?

I miss you so much. Watching your brothers and sister struggle is so hard. I don’t have anything to say to make it better or easier for them as I am struggling.

I miss you. I know you didn’t mean to hurt us but this is the worst buddy. I love you to heaven and back. Come visit us soon. Love always your mom