“I can remember similar thoughts and feelings throughout my life. Was I always on the verge of this?
Were all of the great things I accomplished fueled by motivation/fear of something?
If this disease does hold me back, how can I be happy with a “lesser” life?
If this takes months this time, how do we handle the present? How can I take on the duties and rsponsibility of a career and family if I fall apart?
How can I prevent this from happening again if I don’t know how it exactly happens?
How can I seperate the symptoms from my lifestyle? Am I ever truly out of it?”